Friday, December 28, 2007
I was reading a book The Alchemist by Paulo Coleho. After going trough a couple of chapters i realised that what he was saying makes sense . i was overwhelmed with joy and exitation. the same feeling s a child meets when he is given a new toy. it made me feel that from the very next moment after reading this i wil be a better (read enlightened) soul . remember this was after i read jus TWO chapters.then suppresing my exitement i started to read again . this time half my mind is reading it and the other half started wandering . thoughts began to raise suddenly and simultaniously ." i need to take a photo copy of this and post it to xyz " . " i need to show this book to all around me "." i need to remember (rather byheart) these lines so that i can lecture people (hapless people)."i suddenly stopeed again after a couple of paragraph s for, i became aware of my thoughts (for the first time ).i put down the book and started to "see instantly whats going on " (in my mind ) --- my ego or self what ever it is , wants to satisfy itself by projecting itself as a 'erudite' (a person having special knowledge) person . a erudite person who has a special taste for philosophical issues - a person who can lecture on 'HIGH FUNDA' things like awareness and conciousness etc .jus as i am becoming aware of "these things " my ego got the better of me , and thoughts originated " i need to put this on paper ; i need to write a blog (the result of which is this) ", again for the same reason , satisfying my ego by projecting myself as a erudite person .then suddenly a feeling of chill ran through my spine for i realised that these thoughts are ' not within society 's standards of acceptable behaviour ' shortly called as immoral behaviour .i finished the article wondering if we( sorry i ) are really different from egoistic , attention seeking self centric people whome we loahe without realising that in our inner depths we too have the same feelings .
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